Tuesday, April 3, 2007

I know, I know

I've been a crappy blog buddy, and there's absolutely no reason for it. Well, except for work, remodeling, yada, yada, yada.

I guess I kind of feel like I have nothing to say while I'm in TTC limbo. I don't know why, but I'm even procrastinating with that. I'm supposed to take Provera, then after AF comes take BC pills for a month, but I still haven't even called in the prescriptions that were called in before I left for Flo*rida. I'm trying to time it so that I won't have AF when I'm in the Ba*hamas at the end of the month, but instead of trying to figure out the timing, I guess it's been easier for me just to ignore it. Maybe I'm scared of having another cancelled cycle, or maybe the idea of the nightly needle-poking isn't so appealing the second time around. Who knows. I know I *have* to get this cycle started, but something just keeps holding me back. Hopefully I snap out of it, whatever "it" is.

Anyway, I had a great time on vacation. It was short, but much-appreciated. And I got a tan, which is always a good thing. Nothing spectacular happened while I was there, oh, except for the little boy who was in the bathroom with his mother. He comes up to me and says "You can't go on the Jaws ride since you have a baby in your belly." Great. Just what I needed. I wanted to scream, laugh, and cry all at once. While I was embarrassed the kid thought I was pregnant, I'll admit that I wanted more than anything at that moment for him to be right. Of course the PG test I took afterwards failed me, as it always does, and blared a big, fat, negative line in it's usual harsh way.

3 comments:

Baby Blues said...

BFNs are always a bitch.

Feel free to post whatever while on a break! It's nice to hear about other stuff aside from IF, which constantly screams in our face.

Glad you had a great vacation!

Ann said...

Hi Princess Barren, I'm a new blogger and just came across your site.

I know what you mean about being in limbo, although in a slightly different way. I just finished my third round of Clomid, all the way bouncing back and forth between the OB and the RE. I called the RE today, hoping for a prescription for Letrozole, and instead he told me to start Metformin. Which basically means it'll be another couple of months before I can even hope to ovulate. I suppose I should have started Met a while ago, but you can't go back in time, can you? I can totally relate with your impatience.

The good news with you is that you know the injectables will work; now you just have to find the perfect dose!

JW said...

Aw, I'm sorry the test was an awful BFN again. Aren't little kids weird like that huh? Maybe its a premonition of things to come though! ;-)